Friday, July 13, 2001

my page sucks. i think it be time to spruce some shit up. i have stuff to do all day today, though. (i'm better now.)
i'm ugly tonite. (all because of one.) gives me some meat for my session in the morning.
prince of darkness? try squire of dimness!

Thursday, July 12, 2001

black burns. white smile. talking with your eyes. hands on feet. (then it comes.) the world's beautiful and i still got it!

Wednesday, July 11, 2001

god, i love the way this tastes! want to bet on how long it'll take me to fuck it up??

Tuesday, July 10, 2001

i know everyone out there's met someone like this, because there are just too damned many people like this out there! they think they know themselves so fucking well that they have a big list of qualifications you must meet before getting in the door, and...well...if you get in the door and they find that they may have missed something, get out! are these people sooooo fucking afraid of possibilities?? where's the guy whose mind is really open?? how the fuck are there so many closed minded fags out there? why the fucking am i wasting my energy?? i'm feeling (again) like i'm not worth your time.

sign my guestbook!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, July 09, 2001

tonight is the kind of night where unwanted pregnancies begin.

Sunday, July 08, 2001

it's all about Him. everything i do is in His name.

how the fuck can two people be so much alike?
50X12
while i be thinking about it: the wind done gone sucks donkey dick!!!!!

Saturday, July 07, 2001

too fucking many lyrics? i hope it drives you fucking mad. you fucking don't even know how to be who you are, asshole.

Friday, July 06, 2001

happy birthday, sarah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, July 04, 2001

and when my hand touches myself i can finally rest my head
and when they say "take of his body" i think i'll take from mine instead

getting off
getting off while they're all downstairs singing prayers
sing away
he's in my pumpkin p.j.'s
lay your book on my chest
feel the word
feel the word
feel the word
feel it

i could have
i should have
i could have flown
you know i could have
i should have
i didn't so

from "icicle" by tori
i've got to give this just the attention it deserves: i can't very well fuck off if i don't know who you are, right?
it's over and i feel like a kid who's about to enjoy summer vacation. no regrets. no fears. i'm coming up with a "want to do" list. note that it's not a "to do" list, cuz there's nothing that i got to do!

aaron, thanks for the well-wishes. you've definitely played a good part in getting me ready to move on (in more areas than one). i sincerely wish the best for you!

Monday, July 02, 2001

and i cry and no one can hear
inhale
the blinded eyes that see
the chaos
bring the pitiful to me
even though i'm wide-awake, i will
and blackest night and i wait for you
it's cold in here there's no one left
and i wait for you
and nothing stops it from happening
and i knew i'd cherish all my misery alone
and i wait staring at the northern star
i'm afraid it won't lead me anywhere
he's so cold he will ruin the world tonight
all the angels kneel into the northern lights
kneel into the frozen lights
and they paid, i cry and cry for you
ghosts that haunt you with their sorrow
i cried cause you were doomed
praying to the wound that swallows
all that's cold and cruel
can you see the trees, charity and gratitude
they run to the pines
it's black in here blot out the sun
and run to the pines
our misery runs wild and free
and i knew the fire and the ashes of his grace
and i wait staring at the northern star
im afraid it wont lead you very far
he's so cold he will win the world tonight
all the angels kneel ino the frozen lights
feel their hearts they're cold and white
and i want you
and blessed are the broken
and i beg you
no loneliness no misery is worth you
oh tear his heart out cold as ice it's mine
and i wait praying to the northern star
i'm afraid it won't lead you anywhere
he's so cold raining on the world tonight
all the angels kneeling to the northern lights
and i pray begging to the norther star
i'm afraid it won't lead you anywhere
he's so cold he will rule the world tonight
all the angels kneeling to the northern lights
kneeling to the frozen lights
feel their hearts they're cold as ice
cyanide................i am so dumb. just beam me up. i've had it all forever. i've had enough. remember: you promised me! i'm dying.........i'm dying.........please. i want to i need to be under your skin. our love is quicksand so easy to drown in.
crash and burn...all the stars explode tonight...how'd you get so desperate...how'd you stay alive? help me please burn the sorrow from your eyes...oh come on be alive again...don't lay down and die.........................